Have you ever wondered about that deep longing for home?  That, even though we might call somewhere home, its not. This unsatisfactory world in which I live tries its best to stake its claim to me.  I've come to the conclusion that I am unwanted on the ground I walk. That there is a force at work within the earth that hates the very thing I represent. The price of this world has laid hold of the earth and we are seen as invaders. but we're not. In fact, he is the intruder. (he, as in that worm, deceiver of man, lier, accuser.)  

What are we meant to do? Occupy.

In this short time we are given we cannot give in to the subtle lies of complacency. No, we were meant for so much more than that. I hate what the world does in all its "chicken clucking". (as my sister would call it) The drama that wraps our thoughts and emotions. The shallow talk of the caged soul. Going no deeper than necessary for fear of being trampled. Can i blame them, you or me? Not at all. We all fall prey to agreeing with the enemy. The more God opens my eyes the more i see just how many lies i have believed for years. Believed them, agreed with them and thought they were innocent... when they were really tearing my soul to pieces. They will catch up to you. Eventually, agreeing to self-loathing thoughts, inadequacy thoughts and worthlessness thoughts... it becomes a part of you. To separate yourself takes a fire only the Holy Spirit can forge. Even as simply as saying "yes" to a small thought of, "man, I really make a mess of everything...", "why don't i ever get anything right?", "i'm looking really fat today, aren't I?", "God could never love me...", "I hate the way i am..." or one that is so easy to fall into, "no one has or will ever love me."

What are we thinking? How in the world are we going to fulfill the call that God has so carefully placed on each one of our lives? Time will end... and I am fed up with being trampled, run over and manipulated by the enemy.

Are we going to occupy the area God has given us?

"He who overcomes will, like them, be dressed in white. I will never blot out his name from the book of life, but will acknowledge his name before my Father and his angels."

"To him who overcomes, I will give the right to sit with me on my throne, just as I overcame and sat down with my Father on his throne." Revelation 3:21, 21:7

I killed a deer. A buck actually.

God's grace showered on me.

*Edit*

I am sympathetic for the deer... However, i think God values me a little higher than the deer. And you're right, I'm not a hunter because i killed it with my car! So i was driving 74 miles an hour down the highway and i just glanced down at the clock for no apparent reason. Not even 2 seconds passed and i looked up again. I then saw this head and antlers for a fraction of a second and Wham! I looked in the rear view mirror and saw it spread out in the middle of the highway behind me. All it did to my car was take out the passenger mirror. (Its head hit on my car's frame)

The reason for God's grace is this: If I hadn't looked down I probably would have seen it running up, I would have stepped on the brakes, and the deer would have hit my car head on...totaling my car. Also, the cars behind me were a safe enough distance away that they could swerve it.

I was a little shaken. All the way home I quoted scripture and that calmed me down. Needless to say, God protected me completely.

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